Monday, July 23, 2007
left seattle. now in transit at narita. the past few days have been hectic with little time to pause and think. and now i am bearing the emotional brunt of it all. it hurts, terribly. i miss him, i miss seattle, i miss all the fun crazy times we had. especially looking at the photos from the past week. it'll be hard to have that all again. but 2 more months, we'll see.rachel at 12:46 AM
Friday, July 13, 2007
pause.
gonna be leaving for oregon soon but i find myself cranky this morning. at least it's finally gonna be just us for a few days. the skies are gray today which is an oddity given how hot the past few days have been. i've been out mostly rediscovering this city. and as next sunday looms closer, i can't help but wish that the days didn't slip past me so quickly.
rachel at 9:42 AM
i want to believe in something true.rachel at 12:15 AM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
written on the back of a receipt while waiting for the bussitting at the bus stop on a cloudless, tiffany blue-skied afternoon with a box of frosted cupcakes by my side, i felt a sense of peace and happiness. the kind that comes with being in love, and being at a good point your life where everything feels right. and it's on days like these that i wish would roll on forever, not be uprooted in a matter of 2 weeks. because i don't know when i will be able to feel like this again.
amidst the preoccupations that consume us, we often forget to pause for a moment and in the silence, revel in the blessings we have been given. moments like these don't come often but when they do, i'm glad for the reminder of how lucky my life has been in spite of the difficulties and disappointments i've had to face.
and it gives me hope and faith that someday, somehow, i will feel this way again.
Labels: musings
rachel at 1:04 AM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
it's saturday night and i'm holed up in here again commiserating with the melancholy of jay chou's music. i'm pretty darn sure i wouldn't be able to find my way back here on my own after sunset. it's just as well, i've got plenty for company - cream puffs from saiko, plums, dou nai and satc dvds. i've stuffed myself pretty well today - brunch was pepperoni pizza and mint hot chocolate at cosi, mid-afternoon sweet cream ice-cream with strawberries and marshmallows at mix, and sushi for dinner. i'm about to give up on that certain dress i've been eyeing over the past 2 days - it fits almost perfectly but not enough to warrant a purchase. ARGH. then there is the kate spade wallet that caught my fancy today. ohh how good it is to be on holiday and to not have any serious decisions to make or contemplate ponderous issues right now - i need that break.rachel at 9:47 PM
a late start to the day, but i'm well-rested. the room's in a real mess in the sense that all my stuff acquired over the past 6 months is stuffed in shopping bags and are sitting in a corner waiting to be unpacked and repacked. but that's not my main priority right now - i wanna go out and have fun in the sun...just not alone i guess. it'll only be a couple more days. i'm trying to stop living in denial and accept the fact that i will only be here for awhile more - so far it's been working out fine but it's hard to come to terms with thoughts of coming home (because this city has been so good to, and for me). i didn't ever think i would feel this way.so it's supposedly a lucky day for couples - it's a nice number but i don't quite buy into this numerology thing cuz relationships are so much more than that. i suppose i'll be on my own for the most part this weekend - i'm thinking of solotripping to bainbridge island tomorrow. for now i have terrible cravings for a certain gorgeous dress and bubble tea.
rachel at 10:26 AM
summer is here and we're going back to the way we were. i'm back in seattle and while mostly everything feels different, some things never change. taking comfort in the familiar for now.rachel at 12:48 AM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
love, interrupted
it's been 2 months, of which we spent almost a month apart. everything we've gone through so far has given me faith in us. i don't think i've been so happy with someone before, and even though i haven't exactly been that experienced in terms of relationships, i know when it feels right. i was watching satc the other night (what better place to watch it than in nyc itself) and carrie was talking about how a relationship wouldn't be a relationship if there wasn't some kinda pain involved, because it catalyzed growth. but there was a difference between the growing kinda pain and the actual kinda pain.
it hasn't been easy being on opposite coasts for the past few weeks and i dread to think what will happen when we are continents and an ocean apart. our first month together was wunderbar, beautiful and special. that period of time in which a relationship finds its footing and blossoms - that was kinda short for us given how late into the spring quarter it was. but now i realize that our non-physical presence in each other's lives at the mo' has only made me want this to work even more. being apart, somehow, has taught me how to love.
"what looks like crazy on an ordinary day looks alot like love if you catch it in the moonlight"
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rachel at 8:28 AM
Monday, June 25, 2007
strawberry fieldsone of the highlights of my visit to central park, because i'm a beatles/lennon fan, and imagine is one of my favourite songs. i took the first photo standing on a bench, and i love how the light falls on the word, in spite of the many trees surrounding the area. which, for me, truly illuminates the meaning of the word and its infinite possibilities.
Labels: travel
rachel at 10:18 PM
walking the brooklyn bridge
i woke up at 7am on my second day in manhattan, took the subway to brooklyn, and walked on the brooklyn bridge back, just so i could soak in the gorgeous view of the manhattan skyline.
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rachel at 7:12 PM
look what i found in fao schwarz
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rachel at 7:05 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
just changed my air ticket - i'll be home a little later, 3 weeks than originally planned. because life and love got in the way. this means, a li'l bit more traveling! :)rachel at 9:48 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
the windy city.what's up buttercups...i'm in chicago now staying at my cuz's place. i'll be here till wednesday where i fly to nyc and start my crazy 8 day tour of the east coast and canada, followed by about 2 more weeks of hanging around nyc, philadelphia and boston before going back to seattle. it's gonna be one hectic and hopefully awesome summer.
i'm quite enjoying chicago - this is the first relaxing holiday i've taken over here where i'm not rushing around the various attractions cuz there ain't that many. well its basically alot of skyscrapers, a coupla musuems and hella lotsa good food and bars although some can be quite chi chi. we did some shopping, walked down michigan ave and stuffed ourselves with good food.
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rachel at 10:29 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
it was one of those near perfect days which basically consists of hanging out with him. we spent almost 4 hours at peet's in greenlake drinking coffee and talking. it's amazing how time passes so fast when we are together and how we can go on talking for ages. then in the car i couldn't hold back any longer, my emotions got the better of me and i started crying, because i started thinking about how everything was going to change. it's harder than i thought it would be.i'm okay now, because i am preoccupied with thoughts on packing and the going to canada and re-entering the usa after my visa expires issue.
rachel at 2:40 AM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
may 7thspring came late to seattle and that monday was one of those rare warm and sunny days which have thankfully increased in frequency. with the weather being so perfect, tony took me to manzana in bellevue for lunch, followed by gelato, and then we went to alki beach to catch the sunset and have dinner. that was the day that everything fell into place for me, that everything felt so right:)
that was also the day we got sick of mexican food, and we have been ever since.
sunset at alki
rachel at 12:49 PM
done with my final project. i haven't been blogging cuz i've just been busy, but i still feel like i need an avenue to record what's going on in my life for posterity's sake. everything's still pretty clear in my memory, but i don't want to forget this part of my life.it's going to be an emotional few days. moving out of the apartment i've been living in for the past 5 months, being apart from him for a month, then coming back and leaving again in 10 days. and then i don't know when i'll see him again.
keeping busy takes my mind off all that, keeps me from getting emo. but sometimes i can't help it - like when i look at him, when i watch him while he drives/studies, when i start daydreaming.
the surprises i had for him yesterday sort of worked out. it didn't all go according to plan but at least he didn't have a clue. :)
anyway. i'm trying to be positive about everything right now. what we have now is good. i'm happy. i'm going on holiday for a month. i'm going to visit cities i've always wanted to go to. it will be awesome. for now i won't think too much.
Labels: musings
rachel at 12:38 PM