Friday, December 01, 2006
hmm.exams are over at last and i can breathe easy again, although my life is busy and stressful in a different (and eventually good) way.
as a result i'm still short of sleep...ever since the exams ended two days ago i have still only managed to average 5 hours of sleep per night. oh well been busy running errands and worrying myself silly over certain things. and because of that i've been crabby and snappy and reclusive.
it's just a phase, though. i think people misunderstand. they try to probe you for what's wrong when clearly you want to be left alone and you don't want to talk about it. i mean, i'm not bottling up my feelings. sure, i'm keeping them to myself but i'm working it out on my own. it's so hard trying to talk to people sometimes...you tell them something and instead of empathising they either admonish you and impose their ideas upon you or cluck in disapproval.
and because it's just a phase, i will be all right in awhile. the incessant probing really irritates me. is knowing why so important? yes, i'm hard to talk to and i'm hard to understand but really - i'll be more candid after i cool off and sort out my thoughts.
it's like telling someone you want a time-out for a relationship and he says he'd rather break up right away because he doesn't believe in the in-between.
rachel at 6:19 AM
